The Ecological Renewal of the Soul

The Ecological Renewal of the Soul

What brought me to this moment was, at first, a haunting. A rotten, gnawing Emptiness inside of me that came to the surface anytime my life felt difficult. The Emptiness pushed me to leave job after job and city after city until I became resilient enough to turn around and look at its ghostly face. There I saw a deep sadness. A spirit with no home, cast out because its host didn’t know how to honor its presence.

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Why We Often Go Mute Before a Big Change

Why We Often Go Mute Before a Big Change

When shifts are underway, we often become language-less for a time. The words we used to use to describe ourselves no longer fit, but it takes time and experience to find the ones that do.

This mute, formless, and nuanced space is an uncomfortable place to be in for people who want to know and be able to describe what’s going on inside of them.

I am one of those people, and I’m without a language right now.

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Inquiry 4/4: What Will the Darkness Do To You?

Inquiry 4/4: What Will the Darkness Do To You?

I’ve always been scared easily. My jumpy nature has been with me throughout my life, and images from scary movies I watched as a kid are still seared into my psyche, always at the ready when I’m home alone or out in the woods.

The summer after high school, I went camping with some friends, and when it got dark, I was incessant in my requests for someone to go to the bathroom with me, go to the car with me...to essentially never leave me remotely vulnerable once it was nighttime.

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Inquiry 3/4: Out With the Old, In With the New

Inquiry 3/4: Out With the Old, In With the New

Every 30 days, I look forward to getting Lena Stevens’ monthly forecast in my inbox. Her shamanic wisdom always resonates in some way, and I take seriously her recommendations for how to flow with what’s happening in the world around me.

Her theme for September was “Adjustment,” and her advice was to practice discarding what was ready to go and embracing the new so that we don’t get stuck in old, habitual patterns that ultimately hurt us. This is perfect, of course, because we’re transitioning into a new season, and change is all around us.

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Inquiry 2/4: What Chronic Back Pain Has Taught Me About Tolerating Bullsh*t

Inquiry 2/4: What Chronic Back Pain Has Taught Me About Tolerating Bullsh*t

In my rough ‘n tumble twenties, I put my back through the ringer. Between getting bucked off a horse running full speed to crashing ATVs to getting rear-ended, my spine has experienced its fair share of bruises. Add on stress, poor posture, and having to schlep around a tiny human and all her gear, and most days, I’m on the couch with a heating pad by 5:00. If it’s a day where world events get me particularly enraged, the heating pad comes out by 2:00.

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